I wish I were a snowflake

I wish I were a snowflake
Then I would just float down
And land there outside my window
So peacefully lying there in a bed of whiteness
I wish I were that tree standing in the storm
Not having to carry the enormity of being human
Every time we give in to our desires
We fall into the space of separation and regret
Of our grandfather Adam
He cried for forty years
His tears
Tears of burning pain
Of a darkness that has to take its course
And emptiness that
The kings of this earth would give every
Mountain river, and field,
Every planet, star, every breath
To get away from

Our Teacher Omar,
Asked for his head to be on the ground when he died
His intestines spilling out,
He asked for no titles,
he recited major verses about regret
even though he was the last one to be regretful

So we turn to the Quran
Adam was forgiven
It is our destiny
To have to
Walk this path
But oh my Lord
Forgive us
Except us still
In the neighborhood of the good ones

Goodness is so sweet
And the evil of the self
Is so dirty
It gives nothing
It shows we haven’t grown up

The fake Sufi
Wears the clothes,
Remembers epitaphs,
Fakes it to the end
The true warrior declares war on himself
Starting at that inevitable showdown unswervingly
Its either you or me buddy.
Watching like a cat to a mouse hole
The Blessed Prophet said the best deed
Is to avoid the prohibited
The greatest jihad
Is the only jihad
We have to quit ourselves,
Like cigarettes,
Like alcohol,

Be a man,
Take responsibility
It’s the only way out
Of this self hell
We call
Our life
If you think we’re some hairless chimp
Then you have no idea what a human being is
Energy of a monkey is energy of a monkey
Energy of human is Divine
False logic will never save the day
False logic pushed the button
That fried a million people in seconds
Humans are an iceberg
Today’s world
Is making our souls die a million deaths every minute
All the while trying to solve the mystery of the totality of creation with a calculator.

Holy ones are those that have defeated their egos
Shaykh Nazim said the lowest point of faith
Is sitting on a desert island with a young women
And yet having no impure thoughts about her
And He is proof that that can be
Yes,
Let’s not spend our lives in half truths
Still a teenager at ninety
Oh Allah help us
Help us
Help us
Help us
Help us
Help Us
Forgive us
Guide us to Your Gaze
And the abode of safety
You only You can save us

You are ALLAH
We are nothing
Help us